pointsunderneath
and i am a hostage to my own humanity, self detained and forced to live in this mess i've made and all i'm asking is for you to do what you can with me, but I can't ask you to give what you already gave.
when the world stood and laughed, poked, proded and taunted. i knew it was up to us to prove them wrong. but silly me, thinking it'd all work out. so isn't it funny how words can ruin everything. when things you shove away finally break free. the people you know you'll hurt, the necessary evil they call it, and you walk away because things might not go the way you want. what if the one person you walked away from never comes back, what then? would you risk it all by letting go? but if you could see me now, you'll see that there's no hate, just love and the hope that you'd see it. so know that i'm always standing in your doorway, because i'm not going anywhere.
i want to let you in on a secret, i'm not who you think i am, in fact, my disguise is so thin, i'm surprised you haven't seen right through me. i'm the girl of your dreams masquerading as your best friend. and when i finally ripped off this facade, you got scared and ran away again. someone once told me there are two types of girls: the ones you grow out of, and the ones you grow into. i really hope i'm the latter. i may not be the one you love today, but i'll let you go for now, hoping that one day you'll fly back to me because i think you're worth the wait.
its been said that any one person in the world is connected to another by only 6(or less) degree(s) of seperation. 6 billion souls. yet, people seem to be more distant than ever before. but heres the silver lining. because out of that 6 billion hearts waiting to be caught, isn't it funny how even through the distance and loneliness, people manage to find that ONE person, the best friend, soulmate or whatever you call it, that one needle in the haystack of haystacks and actually not wonder how remarkable a feat that is.
one giant leap of faith.
yours truly
